Years ago, 1998 I think it was, I wrote a song called “Remember the Sound”. Since I’m missing my children terribly and am denied involvement in their lives through duplicity and deceit, I decided to dig it out and work on it. It beats sitting here suffering. It is, if you like, a suicide note for my children.
I wrote “Remember the Sound” one night when my eldest, who was 5 at the time woke up and came to me in the living room, just wanting to be held by me. No words. I held her for ages, then she went to bed content. I wrote the song. I already knew I’d leave before long, either by divorce or death. I wanted to write a promise. Only now I know that no matter what, there’s nothing I can do about the fear my children have.
A good friend of mine told me that all a parent can do in life is to let children down gently. I don’t think I have the capacity to be any more gentle then I have been, but it’s not enough. Everything I say or do seems to be a let-down for them. Maybe that’s the fate of all parents, no matter what.
Some explanation about the name - I named our daughter years before she was born and years before I got married. It was what I always wanted to call my daughter. I named all our kids, but this name was special.
I did a fair bit of work on the song tonight and I intend to finish it and post the demo up on this site soon. Here are the words. (Please do note that all my output here, words and music are protected by the Creative Commons licence.)
Verse 1
Nobody knows the way I feel about you
How could they hope to understand
There was a time when all you were was a name
Now here we are, holding hands!
Chorus
Rest your head against my heart, remember the sound
You will never be afraid while I’m around
I will comfort you, my arms will be your home
Part of me lives in you and you’ll never be alone
Verse 2
When you despair just close your eyes and I’ll be there
Long after I’m gone I’ll be with you
And nobody really dies as long as they’re remembered
Just trust in me, you’ll see it’s true
Chorus
Rest your head against my heart, remember the sound
You will never be afraid while I’m around
I will comfort you, my arms will be your home
Part of me lives in you and you’ll never be alone
Verse 3
I look at your eyes and see the point in all the suffering
A moment like this is worth it all
Ashes to ashes dust to dust is where we’ve come from
So lift your head because even angels fall
Chorus
Rest your head against my heart, remember the sound
You will never be afraid while I’m around
I will comfort you, my arms will be your home
Part of me lives in you and you’ll never be alone
Middle 8
Here I am - and here you are
Alive or dead. Near or far
Hush my love. I will wipe your tears away
Hush my love. I will chase your fears away
Chorus
Rest your head against my heart, remember the sound
You will never be afraid while I’m around
I will comfort you, my arms will be your home
Part of me lives in you and you’ll never be alone
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