United KKKingdom

Could I be any more integrated? I have often asked myself this as I washed my face for the fourth time in a row, bent over a sink full of bleach with my eyes red and stinging.

Alright, you got me, I haven’t washed my face with bleach, not really, but I wonder if that would be what it took to finally get me accepted into polite white society? Ah, but then my name would be an impediment, wouldn’t it? My voice, thankfully, has always been whiter than white, indeed, the Times Educational Supplement once praised my “impeccable London accent”, but then maybe they were being patronising. I was after all, reading the precursor to When the Chips Are Down on BBC2 – and they knew I was a paki.

I don’t clearly remember this earliest of memories, but it’s there somewhere – apparently – as a 5-year-old, and I’ve mentioned this before, my headmaster’s party piece was to get me to read the Telegraph editorial to visitors.I have a confession to make. I was a Tory child. My dad was a Tory and therefore, so was I. I didn’t leave his politics until after he passed away. I remember the winter of discontent. That was Labour’s fault. The unions were to blame for rubbish on the streets and power cuts. It was so simple to be judgemental.

As a 7-year-old, I’d go to our local newsagent to pick up the Sunday paper for my dad (those were the days!) and I’d have a political debate with the husband and wife behind the counter. In those days, people at such shops were white. They’re not anymore of course. I don’t understand why.

When Liverpool lost the F.A. Cup Final to Manchester United in the Queen’s Silver Jubillee year, I cried – and I can still recite the team-sheet and I can still feel the pain. It was made up for by the European Cup victory shortly after…”That’s nice! That’s McDermott….and that’s a GOAL!!!”

As a teenager, sometimes, kids in higher years came to talk music with me – because I had an encyclopaedic knowledge of music trends at that particular time – and I listened to John Peel religiously, Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday nights, going to sleep after Radio 1 switched off at midnight. I inhaled the NME, Record Mirror, Sounds and Melody Maker most weeks.

I didn’t just sing The Jam’s Going Underground or Down in the Tube Station at Midnight. I felt I wrote them. Music (and dominantly white music) was what I utterly identified with. Specifically, white music from the UK. The Cure. The Clash. Echo and the Bunnymen. The The. Talk Talk. You you get get the the point point.

When England played in the World Cup in 1986, my cheers when Lineker scored were louder than those of any of the paki-hating whites on our estate – by far! Much louder than those of the bastard who sent his son to tell me that he supported Yorkshire cricket team because no pakis played for them. And yet, I was writing out gigantic England scores on my bedroom window in Blu-tack years before hanging the flag of St. George was popular.

When the police refused to turn up when a mob was smashing in our door with a metal girder, I was still integrated and never wanted anything more than tolerance. I didn’t want them dead. I didn’t want them to move elsewhere. I wanted to be accepted. Not liked. Not loved. Just accepted.

I went to a church school. I sang the hymns. I played the recorder. I was the only kid in my primary school to play the tenor recorder and I played “Once in Royal David’s City” solo to the entire school. In fact, when carol singers came to my door in Fulham a couple of years back, I gave them a few quid to sing “Once In Royal David’s City”.

I went through decades of my classmates and some friends being deliberately, or inadvertently racist. I was never attempting to assert any kind of individuality or profile. It was not me who asked for special consideration. I just asked for the right not to eat pork, not to drink alcohol, not much to ask.

When my kid brother was thrown into thorn bushes and scarred by racist thugs on our estate, we still were not listened to, the police were still not interested. “Just grin and bear it” was their advice.

I’d say I’m fucking integrated. I’d say I’m more integrated than most people, white or black, and I’d say I’m typical for a 40 year old paki. And the facts are beginning to support me…

It has ever been thus – and if any white person for a second thinks they know what it’s like to endure endless taunts and racism and violence based on the easily visible colour of one’s skin – I would urge them to shut the fuck up.

In the meantime, I endure police officers telling me to shut up before I’ve started to speak – the pigs who work for me – this happened two weeks ago when two useless bicycle riding policewomen were completely out of order and I know beyond any doubt that it was because of the colour of my skin. And at Muslim marches, I’ve heard the most breathtakingly ignorant remarks “I don’t know what it’s about. I think they pray to Ali, or something”. Err, yeah, right. I imagined that police officer attempting to explain the trinity to me and I shuddered.

Integration in this country means that white people think they are the master race and pakis should just copy white people in everything – and still be hated and looked down upon as third class citizens.

So it was with interest that I noted the steady stream of anti-Muslim sentiment spilling out of the arses-masquerading-as-mouths of various government ministers, all the way up to the prime minister, in recent weeks. I wondered why there had been such a relentless barrage of racist and divisive invective, all the way up the very top – and why there had been such focus on the trivial issue of the veil. Why such hatred? Why were the papers going nuts over such a tiny, trivial, token matter?

It culminated on Saturday with the Daily Express screaming “BAN IT!”. I saw the paper scream hate at me and my kind again, a petty, bitter, hateful veil drawn across Islam (but actually, just brown people really) and the rest of the checkerboard country. (Whites and blacks hate us alike – don’t worry – tomorrow – the enemy will be someone else – and there will be nobody left to stand up for you…)

I thought that we’d turned the corner.
I thought that we’d climbed the hill.
But we’re right back where we started.
Disenfranchised – what a bitter pill!”

When I got home on Saturday, there was a news item on the Islam Channel, about as obscure as it gets, on a report by the University of Lancashire, commissioned by the Home Office. Why had this not been mentioned anywhere? I had never seen it on the front page of the BBC web site – or any paper. Surely, this was too important to ignore?

My blood alternately ran cold, and boiled. Not good for one’s health that. It’s no wonder that since, I have not been able to sleep without palpitations, or fear for my children and my fellow Muslims – and brown people – after all – people in this country are generally ignorant, hateful, and racist – when the chips are down.

Enough of the build-up, what did the report say?

I’m not finished with the build-up. After all, we had to endure it. On the red-tops, the white-tops, the mop-tops, from the fucking roof-tops we heard our religion lambasted, our values misrepresented, our willingness to integrate derided and belittled.

We had “Muslim cabbie bans guide dog” on the cover of the Fascist Standard. Wonderful. What about “Two born again Christian fundamentalists murder nearly a million Arab Muslims”. Doesn’t sound as evil, does it? After all, we are sub-human and because a single white person is a tragedy and a million dead sand-niggers is just a statistic, the brainwashing has worked.

We are sub-human, so kill us around the world in every Muslim land, create fear and hostility and lies against us in our adopted lands and then turn the tables – we are not British after all – we are guests at the white man’s table. Kill us all! We deserve to die because we are other! Kill us in Chechnya, Palestine, Afghanistan, Lebanon, Iraq, don’t stop there! Kill us in Iran, kill us in Syria – everywhere there’s a fucking Muslim – kill us all!

When Palestinian children are murdered by Zionist fuckpigs on a daily basis, you tell us to stop bleating about Palestine, and if a thousand Arab kids die, you say it’s propaganda. One Katyusha rocket hits a Zionist fuckpig soldier and it’s terrorism, but a million cluster bombs in olive groves and playgrounds killing and maiming every day while your jets daily violate Lebanese airspace is legitimate defence. Your souls are dead, your hearts are dead, your conscience is fucking dead.

When one white man dies, it’s an “atrocity”. So you see, you already do it. You turn the page to sports, because it’s an Arab. And if Muslims are abused or attacked or killed in Britain, they’re not British, you feel they had it coming and you are glad and you turn the page again. it has always been that way, and it always will.

We are barbarians, we are evil, we are scum, we hate women, we hate poofs, we hate guide dogs, the blind, long trousers and Jews. And, and, and we’re… dark!!! The amount of shit that has poured out of the MSM and politicans’ mouths has been utterly risible, but what it boils down to is that it has been one fabrication after another,

You see, it is not us that fail to integrate. As my (very typical) story shows, we have no trouble integrating. Despite my hatred for the actions of America and the UK, I love both. Funny that, eh? True. Yes. True. And no Muslim blew up the fucking underground – and until I see the evidence (those videos would have been laughed out of any court by any judge in just about any country) I will not believe. I will continue to be integrated, if my countrymen allow, but I am now totally suspicious of a lying government that ignores the facts and demonises the innocent in its own country to further its warped agenda – and murders and rapes innocents in foreign countries for the sake of the same, evil agenda.

Terrorism? Fuck off. What about the BNP terrorism catch? Why didn’t that make the news? Why? It’s obvious, isn’t it? It’s off-message. It is part of the agenda. It was like those two British soldiers dressed as Arabs – having to be rescued from prison by a tank that also inadvertently set free 3-figures-of-hardcore-criminals.

It is more likely to be white people who fail to integrate and the recent Home Office study proves it. (White people reading this might flinch. Sorry. I don’t mean offence. If I was a white minority in a brown country in some strange-quark world where everything was Alisha-in-Wonderland-Black – our roles would be reversed. So fucking chill. You ain’t prejudiced against. Not yet – but when the ruling classes decide your time’s up – you too will be interned – no different to any brown person…so don’t say you weren’t warned…)

The people are fickle. You can’t really blame the people. (I’d like to!) The people are the “unruly beast”. They are skillfully, willfully manipulated by the puppets of the corporates – namely the state and the mainstream propaganda media. They ring the bell, Pavlov’s unruly beast salivates, drools, then like a Pit Bull – savages the paki whose scent he has been prepared for. It’s not the fucking Pit Bull’s fault, is it? But hey – I’d still put the fucker down.

And the kicker – the thing that you’ve been lied to – the facts you would not believe…. The Burnley Project study’s results show that white children who are segregated from other races have far more intolerant attitudes than schools where whites mix with others. Dr Holden said: “One concern is that a lot of attitudes from the white children seemed to reflect their parental influences. We have discovered a lot of findings that challenge those assumptions that Muslims are a problem.

“It does fly in the face of what ministers have been saying.”

So the government has cynically set aside its own findings and then quite brazenly unleashed a shit-storm-backlash of Biblical (it’s a Crusade doncha know?) proportions against the Muslim community, with minister after (Prime) minister lining up to have a go, prejudicing trials – and the nation – in the most barbaric display of hypocrisy and duplicity this country has witnessed in a generation.

Remember Ruth Kelly telling Muslims we were not doing enough to integrate? This was after she knew what this report was telling her. (And what Muslims, bemused, already know…) And this is what the report told her…

“The greater degree of racial tolerance in an overwhelmingly Asian/Muslim populated school again calls into question the common sense assumption that mixed schools represent the most tolerant environments.”

Remember Jack Straw giving his ratings a boost by saying that the veil was a visible sign of separation (er – doh – of course it’s a fucking visible sign of separation you Mugabe-handshaking-cunt – that’s the fucking point. Not all of us want our 12-year-old daughters flashing their thongs at perverts like your fellow MPs or wearing “Porn Star” t-shirts. You can sexualise your own daughters, thanks very much, our daughters, wives, sisters and mothers are strong enough, despite what you think, to make up their own fucking minds about what they fucking want to wear – and it’s none of your fucking business, you fucking arrogant, stupid, gormless, attention-seeking cunt!)

Remember Tony (bitch-of-Bush – willing to take it up the shitter from his American cunting cohort at a moment’s notice – defiling the office of Prime Minister – once the greatest office in the world) Bliar prejudicing a case going through a court by offering his racist 2p at a time when he should have been worrying about how we are having our soldiers needlessly killed in Iraq and Afghanistan, when we need them here to enforce order on our streets and kill our brown kids….
Sure – comment is free and all that – but this shit-storm has been cynically timed, carefully packaged, misinformed and just plain wrong.

Let’s kill some misconceptions, shall we?

1. The report found that nearly a third of non-Muslim pupils thought one race was superior, compared to a tenth of teenagers in a mainly Muslim school.
2. The survey found that 8% of pupils at school A and 12% in School C expressed an interest in finding out about other people’s religious beliefs, compared to 42% at the mainly Asian school. (school A was mainly white, school C white majority)
3. Dr Holden (one of the report’s authors) said: “The greater degree of racial tolerance in an overwhelming Asian/Muslim populated school again calls into question the common sense assumption that mixed schools represent more tolerant environments.”

Nearly a third of the white pupils believed that one race was superior to another compared with a tenth in the Asian school and under a fifth in the mixed school.

I find Dr. Holden’s findings to back up my own empirical studies. Forty years of trying to be whiter than white only to be treated shiter than shite.

I would be beyond caring if I didn’t love my country deeply. This is the anger of a spurned lover. The anger of a love not just unrequited, but scorned. The anger of one who gave his life in service, only to be reviled as a traitor.

Dr Holden said most pupils at the mainly Muslim school were well integrated and loyal to the UK.

“The overwhelming majority supported liberal democratic values such as showing respect for others, freedom of speech, being friendly to people from other religious and ethnic groups and tolerating those with different views.”

He said the much higher levels of intolerance at the white school were linked to widespread resentment among white residents over the allocation of public funds to the Asian community.

“It is the cumulative effect of myths and stereotype, negative perceptions of cultural diversity and fundamental fear of difference that teachers, outreach workers and educational support staff must make every effort to combat.”

You see, we have integrated, and you didn’t even notice. You didn’t take us as friends, you were happy for us to make you curry while you puked up in our restaurants.

We have integrated. You didn’t notice us staying open morning to night, working hard, serving the community, while you stole from us, robbed us, beat us and trashed our shops.

You see, we have integrated. You didn’t notice us studying hard, learning your ways, your culture, your language, while you attacked ours, denigrated ours, reviled ours.

We don’t think we’re superior.

You think you’re superior.

Every insult, every mouthful of gob and every physical attack you have unleashed on me and my kind ever since we have been here, trying to integrate, trying to be accepted, trying to get along, proves you utterly, indefensibly and completely wrong.

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Eid Mubarak – and many thanks to The Antagonist without whose help this article could not have been written.